I am! It's kind of complicated, because I've both aged her to her mid-thirties and moved her into the Keystone Rose world of King's Dark Tower series. I apologize in advance for any of this that doesn't make sense.
1) When she was about ten, Charlie made a conscious decision that she would never have children of her own. She hasn't really thought about that decision in a long time, and hasn't had occasion to seriously revisit it.
2) Charlie was twenty-six years old (and had already come into the Keystone Rose world) when she first read her own canon. It took her the better part of a day. She has read it since over a dozen times, and made extensive notes in the margins. The most unsettling thing she learned from reading her own story had to do with the inner thoughts and motivations of John Rainbird -- both how thoroughly he manipulated her, and how genuinely, in his own twisted way, he cared about her.
3) Charlie's sex life prior to her first appearance in the game has been nil, with one exception when she was seventeen. Mostly from a desire to prove she could, she slept with a boy a year younger than herself and found the experience more uncomfortable than anything else. She has deliberately suppressed all related desire since then (or, possibly, since long before then), and is not consciously aware of why.
4) The aforementioned why has a great deal to do with what firestarting feels like, to her. Charlie has had to control that ability rigidly since very early childhood, and while she has mostly broken through the Bad Thing complex her parents instilled in her, its remnants are still very much there: at the very core of her she knows that the only thing that feels that good is deadly dangerous.
5) If you asked Charlie if she believes in God, she would probably answer either 'no' or 'I don't know.' The closest thing to a concept of God in Charlie's life is the Rose, and she is as devoted to it as any born-again religious. She serves the Rose first, and the line of Eld second.
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1) When she was about ten, Charlie made a conscious decision that she would never have children of her own. She hasn't really thought about that decision in a long time, and hasn't had occasion to seriously revisit it.
2) Charlie was twenty-six years old (and had already come into the Keystone Rose world) when she first read her own canon. It took her the better part of a day. She has read it since over a dozen times, and made extensive notes in the margins. The most unsettling thing she learned from reading her own story had to do with the inner thoughts and motivations of John Rainbird -- both how thoroughly he manipulated her, and how genuinely, in his own twisted way, he cared about her.
3) Charlie's sex life prior to her first appearance in the game has been nil, with one exception when she was seventeen. Mostly from a desire to prove she could, she slept with a boy a year younger than herself and found the experience more uncomfortable than anything else. She has deliberately suppressed all related desire since then (or, possibly, since long before then), and is not consciously aware of why.
4) The aforementioned why has a great deal to do with what firestarting feels like, to her. Charlie has had to control that ability rigidly since very early childhood, and while she has mostly broken through the Bad Thing complex her parents instilled in her, its remnants are still very much there: at the very core of her she knows that the only thing that feels that good is deadly dangerous.
5) If you asked Charlie if she believes in God, she would probably answer either 'no' or 'I don't know.' The closest thing to a concept of God in Charlie's life is the Rose, and she is as devoted to it as any born-again religious. She serves the Rose first, and the line of Eld second.